I'm not surprised Suou called you out. [ though he expects he did it more politely. ] He's all about chivalry and knightliness and stuff like that...
[ tsukasa quiets for a moment, then sighs. ]
Thank you for telling me, senpai. I'm sorry I gave you a hard time about it, and about talking about memories in general, a while ago. [ ...he rests against his desk, mmm. ] To be honest, I find it hard to talk about that stuff too... I can't remember the last time I discussed a memory with all of you. The last time I did in general was...
[ mm. hmmm... ]
...I told Izutan that Suou thinks school is for study, not for making friends. [ but uh— ] What I mean, senpai, is that it was wrong of me to get on your case about that sort of thing, when I'm being a hypocrite about that... And about a lot of things.
[ wait, he told miyamura about their idol pasts? tsk. mao's more or less out of the retrospec picture right now though, so sena doesn't know how to react to that for the time being.
he listens to tsukasa while getting out of bed and heading to the kitchen. halo top please take the wheel. ]
Yeah, it is hard to get all that out. But honestly? It's because I remembered what you said last time that made me decide to fess up to you just now.
[ oooh, seasalt caramel flavor. ]
I don't blame that Suou kid at all for that. It's only right that he'd react like that, given that kidnapping a fellow idol is pretty much fucked up no matter how you look at it. It's cheating. [ nom ] And you know what's messed up about it? [ nom ] There was paperwork involved. That kid's supposed to join Knights.
[ spoilers, senpai, EVERYONE IN ART CLUB KNOWS ABOUT THEIR IDOL PASTS. AND THEN SOME. ]
Ah, so that's... [ ...that. and then he supposes he never did... mmm. ] I'm glad he didn't. It wouldn't have been good for him, being signed into a unit like that... Being forced.
[ hesitance, and, ]
The senpai in my memories... All of them. They're quite selfish and self-serving, but I can't imagine they would go along with this, or do it, for no reason. Even Sena, senpai.
You still believed in us even now, huh. [ that made him quirk a smile. ] Thanks, Kasa-kun. You're right; the whole thing's still entirely fishy. I know my past self's a piece of work, but with the way I see it, it looks as if he's cornered to do it.
Still, it doesn't mean that any of that is excusable. We can already connect the dots right here with your side of the story and with mine. [ huffs. ] Long story short, Izumi Sena got suspended, and that's what probably made Suou-kun challenge Trickstar for a Duel. Makes sense?
[ maybe it's just suou's feelings ringing so strongly in him
but yeah, he believes in them. in the ones in his memories, and in the ones in front of him. ]
Makes sense. Since Sena got suspended, and Knights lost during the DDD... Because of that, or maybe they were disqualified because of that... Suou felt Knights had been shamed, by the loss and by their actions, and sought to bring them into something new. That Duel with Trickstar was supposed to herald a new Knights, one that fought as honorably and fair as they should. [ . . . ] Probably.
tsukasa's quiet, but he hums after a long pause. mmm. ]
Sure. [ even if this feels like this should be something sena asks, but... sena has to be able to tell everyone else first, too. has to be able to tell leo. tsukasa's okay being a go-between, though. at least he'll have an excuse to talk to his brother again. not like their talk before went poorly or anything like that but, well.
it's still hard, he guesses. ] Do... you want me to tell him all of it? For context and all of that.
No, not everything. He deserves to hear everything from the source itself.
[ seeing how knights were founded by the two of them, only for izumi to ruin all that... it's another burden for sena to carry. it's fine. sena's strong enough. has to be strong enough. ]
Thank you, Kasa-kun. For... giving me that one push. I feel kind of better already, though I'm... you know. Not really looking forward to tell him all that.
I'm happy I could help. [ a very genuine sentiment, he... has been tired, a lot of the time, of dealing with his seniors. there's something admirable about how suou can do it time after time.
but, well.
it isn't like he'd leave any of them (not in chat, not outside of it) hanging, or running themselves into walls, or getting worse, either. tsukasa exhales slowly, softly, as not to make sena realize he's sighing as deeply as he wants to be. ] It'll be okay, senpai. Don't worry so much.
No, seriously. You've been a great help, Kasa-kun, so if there's anything troubling you, please. Let me know and I'll help you, as your senpai. It's the least I can do.
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Ugh, you have to call me out on that here too? I get it, all right? Jesus.
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[ tsukasa quiets for a moment, then sighs. ]
Thank you for telling me, senpai. I'm sorry I gave you a hard time about it, and about talking about memories in general, a while ago. [ ...he rests against his desk, mmm. ] To be honest, I find it hard to talk about that stuff too... I can't remember the last time I discussed a memory with all of you. The last time I did in general was...
[ mm. hmmm... ]
...I told Izutan that Suou thinks school is for study, not for making friends. [ but uh— ] What I mean, senpai, is that it was wrong of me to get on your case about that sort of thing, when I'm being a hypocrite about that... And about a lot of things.
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he listens to tsukasa while getting out of bed and heading to the kitchen. halo top please take the wheel. ]
Yeah, it is hard to get all that out. But honestly? It's because I remembered what you said last time that made me decide to fess up to you just now.
[ oooh, seasalt caramel flavor. ]
I don't blame that Suou kid at all for that. It's only right that he'd react like that, given that kidnapping a fellow idol is pretty much fucked up no matter how you look at it. It's cheating. [ nom ] And you know what's messed up about it? [ nom ] There was paperwork involved. That kid's supposed to join Knights.
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Ah, so that's... [ ...that. and then he supposes he never did... mmm. ] I'm glad he didn't. It wouldn't have been good for him, being signed into a unit like that... Being forced.
[ hesitance, and, ]
The senpai in my memories... All of them. They're quite selfish and self-serving, but I can't imagine they would go along with this, or do it, for no reason. Even Sena, senpai.
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You still believed in us even now, huh. [ that made him quirk a smile. ] Thanks, Kasa-kun. You're right; the whole thing's still entirely fishy. I know my past self's a piece of work, but with the way I see it, it looks as if he's cornered to do it.
Still, it doesn't mean that any of that is excusable. We can already connect the dots right here with your side of the story and with mine. [ huffs. ] Long story short, Izumi Sena got suspended, and that's what probably made Suou-kun challenge Trickstar for a Duel. Makes sense?
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but yeah, he believes in them. in the ones in his memories, and in the ones in front of him. ]
Makes sense. Since Sena got suspended, and Knights lost during the DDD... Because of that, or maybe they were disqualified because of that... Suou felt Knights had been shamed, by the loss and by their actions, and sought to bring them into something new. That Duel with Trickstar was supposed to herald a new Knights, one that fought as honorably and fair as they should. [ . . . ] Probably.
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[ what a relief - ]
I wonder if Leo knew before he left Knights. [ ... ] Could you try asking him?
[ he almost didn't want to ask tsukasa this, fearing that it might affect how leo sees him now. last thing he wants is more conflict dividing them. ]
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tsukasa's quiet, but he hums after a long pause. mmm. ]
Sure. [ even if this feels like this should be something sena asks, but... sena has to be able to tell everyone else first, too. has to be able to tell leo. tsukasa's okay being a go-between, though. at least he'll have an excuse to talk to his brother again. not like their talk before went poorly or anything like that but, well.
it's still hard, he guesses. ] Do... you want me to tell him all of it? For context and all of that.
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[ seeing how knights were founded by the two of them, only for izumi to ruin all that... it's another burden for sena to carry. it's fine. sena's strong enough. has to be strong enough. ]
Thank you, Kasa-kun. For... giving me that one push. I feel kind of better already, though I'm... you know. Not really looking forward to tell him all that.
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but, well.
it isn't like he'd leave any of them (not in chat, not outside of it) hanging, or running themselves into walls, or getting worse, either. tsukasa exhales slowly, softly, as not to make sena realize he's sighing as deeply as he wants to be. ] It'll be okay, senpai. Don't worry so much.
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No, seriously. You've been a great help, Kasa-kun, so if there's anything troubling you, please. Let me know and I'll help you, as your senpai. It's the least I can do.
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Nope, nothing at all. ♪ [ tad bit cheery, but. ] Ufufu, life's just fine... Thank you, Sena-senpai. I'll talk to you some other time.
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All right, then. Take care. ♪